Saturday, 17 January 2009

Buô`n - But Anti- Depressiva- Programm

Music: 1

I*m feeling so down, depressed and frustrated lately.
It*s rly a pain.
Not only for school, but aso because of driving school~

Ax, you don*t know how it feels I tell ya.
So... what should I do?

You know what?
I*m a very analytical person. Everytime I*m feeling sad, I think of all reasons for this feeling and try to find a solution for each of them.
Sometimes I lie awake in my bed and I jux feel like there would be a great pressure on my chest.
Then I always start to think and analyse all reasons.
I aso helped my frn like this, when we were in a school field centre {Schullandheim} once and she felt very sad.

So now I gonna do this, too.

Step 1:

Why do you feel sad? Think abt the reasons.
Reason 1: I guess school. But rather in an indirect way. This school yr didn*t go so well and my grades were not so fine.
But actually it doesn*t bother me very much at the moment, since I know that I CAN do better and it*s something that I can change by myself.
Aso I care not too much abt school at the time.

Reason 2: Driving school. It*s jux frustrating, that I do so many mistakes, which are all totally unnecessary. Aww~ well.... anyway~

Step 2:

Find a solution for each single reason
Solution 1: The solution is called learning. But I*m sure that I won*t do that. And anyway I said, I dun care much abt school at the time.

Solution 2: I guess I jux have to pay more attention. I dunno~
It*s so goddmamn frustrating. I hate cars, I hate streets. What should I do? I have to do better nxt time, that*s the only possible way. But it*s unsatisfactory {unbefriedigend}. omfd~
I*m stuck in a.... kinda... un-solve-able-thing. Let*s say an un-solve-able labyrinth {since Harry P. and Cedric D. were in a labyrinth}. It*s only that I have barely space to move, like when the labyrinth would suddenly become narrower and hemming me in {einengen}. Or like Fleur who got wrapped up by that ugly plant xD.
Eeh.. I*m not Harry Potter addicted. It jux came in to my mind, and a comparison is much nice, when you compare sth to sth you like, like Cedric D. e.g. xD
Loolzz somehow I feel better now. Or.. no... let me think... Better, but not so much.
Ac..... let*s move on!

Step 3:

Look around you, think: Is there anything what bothers you, which you can solve right now?
This step is based on a very simple idea: If you can improve your situation in any way, do it now
So, yes I could clean my fucking room. But somehow I*m blogging right now, so~ dunno.
Get*s complicated to do both in the same time.
Well, let*s think of another thing... I could do so many things, like defragmenting my computer {omg that*s such a lame one. don*t you have a life? defragmenting your pc?! you*re so sick! - hey that*s a start, man!}, i think it rly needs a *defragmentation*. Let*s check. No, it says I dun need to do it. I will still do it xD
So, i think this is enough for a cheering-up... I think I do feel better after, I wrote abt it.


Step 4:

is blog abt it! xD
What do you have a blog for if you dun write abt your life, your emotions and bla?
This question, also explains why the stupid excuse
I*m on Hiatus now, cuz I still have a life again, blabla ...
is complete bullshit.
Since you blog is abt your life, blogging and living don*t contradict {widersprechen} each other.

Now comes the last part of my *Anti- Depressiva- Programm*.


Often when you do Step 1 and Step 2 there are problems/ reasons which you can*t find a solution for. Therefore normally you would stay sad because of it.
but NO!, that*s not my logic.
IF there should be a problem that you can*t solve, it is helpless and vain to be sad because of it. I mean, you can*t solve it, do you rly want to be sad abt it your whole life?
E.g. your are sad because of the sky {sounds ridiculous, but in fact it is the same as being sad of any other things you can*t change}. So you can*t change the sky, you can*t change the fact that there is a sky, you can*t delete/ remove the sky. And is it sensible {vernünftig} to be sad because of that? NO.

So don*t be sad of anything, that you can*t change like he doesn*t love you, i dunno what problems you {girly} girls may have... I*m sure I dun have such problems.

So, you see, now you should be at least a bit happier.
Because you found out what exactly are your problems. They are within easy reach or concrete. You now have them in your hands, now you can handle them.
That*s done with finding a solution. When you have found a solution, you know exactly what to do so that you can be happy again. Now you have two options, either you do what you have thought of for a solution, or you live on with the knowlegde of how you could be happy again. I think I mostly take the 2nd way, since I am two lazy to rly do sth against my problems xD

Loolzz.. I bet a psychiatrist now thinks, that such a thinkg is called self-deception {Selbstbetrug}, but I am completely satisfied with the thought, that I know how to solve my problems and that I can solve them. That*s what counts xD
Well, actually not, but my problems are not big and bad enough to see a need for overcoming my laziness.
The main aim of this so-called programm is to achieve an immediate disappearance of the sad feeling. It is achieved with the knowledge of being able to overcome ones problems.

If you should feel sad the nxt day again, just thinkg of that solutions you found xD

I gonna have some sleep now.

Aw..before nearly forgot it. I was so bored the last sad days, that I decided to make some icons. I dunno why I chose to made some and I never made icons in my life before. So some of them are not so great xD
But feel free to use any of them if you want, but remember the ©
Do you know what it means?
It means ©redit xD Feel free to feel bad if you don*t credit me xD

So I think some of them are rly nice xD
Anyway I*m off now. Nite night.


P.S.: I know I used the words *solution* and *problem* a tiny whee to often xD

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

The New Kawaii

Music: 1

So how*d you like it?
I call it the *New Kawaii*, cuz somehow all sg girly blogs are pink, brown and white~
But other colors can aso be cute~
But I hope you still agree with me that I stayed pink in general xD
And I stronly hope that the japanese text makes sense LooLZz.
Aww and sry if you are tortured wit the idiotic viet version of Rihannas *I dun want to be a murderer* I didn*t want to remove that some from the playlist somehow xD

Jux made a pizza and forgot it in the oven for 28min! But by a mistyrious wonder it still tastes tottally super fine xD

So I dun rly know what to write, cuz actually I*m in a bad mood.
School is such a pain at the time, my grades are getting from bad to worse. I can*t imagine that I had only A*s in English and German for the last years and a B in physics and stuff~
Gosh! I strongly dislike my two German teachers =.=

Well I was in town today and bought that super cute black patent leather {Lackleder} heart-shaped bag!
Do you remember/ know this bag from H&M ?

When I 1st saw it I found it awesome cute, but I didn*t want to buy it for 25€. Cuz H&M always gives discount on their product after some while. Well didn*t happen with this bag. It jux vanished after some time =.=
And honestly, where in the world can you find such bags? Out of ebay, I mean~
And on that very day, I sweared that, should I ever in my life, see a bag like that again, I will buy it immediately without hesitation.
That*s why I bough this black bag xD
It*s aso very nice, meh!
And did you know that there is so many cute MickeyMouse stuff in H&M at the time? Buy, buy, buy if you got the money, lah xD
I dun LoOlZz
But I am happy with my bag x3

Yesterday I went to the theatre. The play I visited last yr was really bad, so I thought that this one might be bad too.
But it was very funny.

Love Revolution

The story of the play was told with famous songs, which the actors sang and they were only accompanied on the piano.
It was abt a very conservative west-german family at the times were germany was still divided in West and East. They pretended that they were perfectly content and happy, but the truth was that
the grandfather knew that his family didn*t really like hime and he knew that he would die soon
the mother loved to sing rock*n roll, but she couldn*t, cuz it*s not done when you are a mother and a good wife
the father never did sth crazy, his whole life he had to care for his good manners
the son thought the whole family was a prison, but he didn*t dare to go away
the daughter wanted a boyfriend
the youngest son was retareded and was a burden for everyone

then a black came into their household, and everybody went crazy.
The daughter wanted him to fuck her {she sang a song which was like, you can fuck everyone but you must fuck me LoOlZz}
The older son run away
The father sang the german song *Ich war noch niemals in New York*/ *I have never been to New York* and also left home
The mother also had an affair with the black guy {LMFAO}
The youngest son became a drunk/ drug-addicted

Sometime later everbody came home again,
The grandfather could walk again
The older son was a playboy I think
The dad - OMFD! - became a trannie! xD He looked so gay! Hahaa
And omg his legs... So skinny! I wish I had such legs xD

Well it was really really fun!
But freaking cold in the evening. I accompied my frn to the train station {well part of the way} and we couldn*t talk normally cuz it was too cold!
-20°C how sick is that?!
I thought such temperatures were possible in Sibera but not here!
When I was in town last Friday I bought sth to eat from *Nordsee* and while I was eating it, I couldn*t wear my mittens {Fäustline}
Honestly, I felt my hands dieing while I ate my potatochips =.=
Anyway, anyway yesterday was much fun !^^

Ewww....I really ADORE THIS LAYOUT xD
Don*t you?
Esspecially the Contact- Form xD Godlike!
I wanted to add more categories, except Profile Entries and Contact, but I couldn*t think of any xD
And PLEASE anyone of you, who is pro in JavaScript tell me how I can solve the window.onload problem finally !!!!!!!!
But in general I am very content with the colours and so on!^^

So see you around. CHU !!!~~~~~~~~~~~~

Thursday, 8 January 2009


Music: 1

Whytf did I call this post *Nonesense* ?
Because in my eyes this isn*t a real post.
I just think that I should do sth to satisfy my hungry readers xD

Who are getting more and more everyday? and are still not commenting.
Was solls. LoOlZz

The past days my thoughts were wandering around Forks during twilight. I talked or
better quarrelled with my friends about Edward.
Since the new moon he is on my mind. And my mind eclipsed under his portrait.
In the end I came to a decision, a breaking dawn at the end of those dark days.
*sighing heavily*
*moaning around*
Aww... that decision came when I chatted to my frn the other day:
aini: change your status!
angel: which status
aini: yiruma - river flows in you {Note: Ed's supposed to play that song to bella}
angel: so what? You know what you can do! {Du kannst mich ma!}
aini: tzzzz... Edward knows what he can do!
angel: stop that! you can't say that in my presence!
aini: EDWARD KNOWS WHAT HE CAN DO !!! *hitting Edward*
angel: *hitting aini*
aini: hey that*s mean! i*m real. that guy isn*t !! *still hitting ed*
angel: yes he is!
aini: in your dreams!
angel: that*s right! *slap aini in her face*
aini: *slapping ed in his face*
angel: *slapping aini*
aini: njahahahaaa *still slapping ed*
angel: aww... edward..... I love him!
aini: goddammit *finishing edward*
angel: *finishing aini*

aini: i will die with the smile of victory on my lips... edward is dead !!!
man... I gonna write a 5th volume!

No, I won*t but......
But I*m going to write a super duper tiny short 5th volume xD

And the title is
or in German
*Bis(s) zum Nimmerwiedersehen*

Actually I wanted to write it in this post, but I*m rather un-creative right now, so I shall feed you with hopes {vertrösten} of nxt time or so. But I will write the sequel {Vorsetzung} in this shallow post xD
I mean if I got it in the end I will add it to this post, lah! Got it?

But, nevertheless I shan*t fob you off with such a pure meaningless nonesense.
My nonesense has class!
(but it*s still nonesense I jux noticed)

So I*ll post some pics of Robert P. now and comment them

#1 WTF?! Looks like Micheal Jackson in former years!

#2 OMD!!! He should shave himself. He looks much better when he is shaved!

#3 Reminds me of Elvis! But looks really good one closer look!

#4 Aww? I dunno. It looks good, but not my style~ So different lah!

#5 Vampire style!

#6,7 Nice hor! But 2nd one need censoring the *twilight* and Ed!

#8 This one is very nice! I think I like it most!

#9 Or this one! Omg his face! Rat la ke ai!

#10 I*m lost xD

#11 Horrible rite? It*s Ed (i think)

#12 His expression xD

#13,14 Last ones. I know that some of you got suck internet xD Very ke ai!

What do we see from those pics:
He got an awesome smile
And an incredible cool hair style. Undone xD

Now since he also is an musician, let's hear him sing!

He starts quite late, at 1min +

Ax........................... Somehow all that Rob-mania sucks.
But well he is very handsome.

When I was in town today I bought those Moleskine notebooks. One in bright pink and one in dark pink!
I rly love them they are so ke ai!
And elegant too! And chic!

Noticed that I got Hello Kitty files in the same shades of the same colour xD

And now last but not least!

Click to enlarge! Found on Candied. Link at my credits.

Let me cite this one
Dont direct link any images and or pics you can see here. almost everything is mine. This includes layout, do not take them. I made them, pixel by pixel.

Now Last Anouncement!

My new one!
Change everything which must be change once you know this xD

No... Last on shall be


Isn*t this post a disaster?
It is xD

P/s: Pics might be all gone in a while!